the universe and it's divine signs.....

It's amazing how everyday we are faced with a challenge, a decision, a thought, an idea or even a feeling. These are clear signs from the universe, slowly inkling us to our most awesome destiny! A destiny that leads us to a loving more forgiving and accepting nature. I am a firm believer in the power of the universe and divine intervention. I am also a firm believer in karma, energies and just living to love, give, cherish, and be true to oneself! I find it to be extremely liberating and necessary to always be with love in your heart. The world can seem like a very troubled and cloudy place but through your eyes and your heart, you can turn that all around. The results may not come today or even tomorrow, however the knowledge of putting the kindness of words, thoughts and energy out there does incredible things in volumes! And in time, at the right time, the most amazing of outcomes will be presented to you in forms like you could have only imagined, but then has become quite the reality. I feel as human beings we all have the capacity to love and be kind to one another. A smile is for free and only encourages more smiles. In matters of love I am completely experiencing the wonderment and immaculate joys and gifts the universe offers. Being true to myself, totally and solely faithful and trusting in the universe, i have cried my tears, broken hearts, have had my heart broken, disappointment, sorrow and pain, but inn the end I pushed through with an open heart and mind that all will be well in my world. Putting the positive energy out there, being a cheerleader for love and an eternal optimist towards the power of kindness and absolute growth has liberated my soul to unimaginable places.

The universe is a grand thing and all I can say to you and your internal and eternal plight is to always be true to yourself and carry an unconditional love in your heart for yourself and the immaculate energy around you

The world will and can be in disarray...follow your path and the divine signs will always lead you where you need be! It may take some of us a lifetime to see where we need to be, but the road getting there is priceless and has made us the persons that we are exponentially loved for!

A love note....

Hey You.....

I am so very much in love with you. Your character, your person, your mind, your soul, just all you are is simply amazing! I think of how lucky and blessed I am to have such a wonderful person in my life! You have been such a positive and devoted force in my life. Your energy and affections and simply your kind and loving heart has captured a part of me that was waiting to be captured. Waiting for someone to come along and understand how deeply passionate I am about life, love and the eternal pursuit for creative freedom! You have made a permanent imprint in my heart and nothing and no one will ever take the memories and times we spend together away from me. Even in death, I know that at some point I will come back and meet you again, to experience this love and wonderful hidden place we have created. I cannot express how deeply my love is for you. It brings me to tears because I honestly love you so much and just who you are warms my soul. I thank you from every inch of my heart...you have been the lightest and brightest in my life.
The only one whom has completely stolen my heart in ways I could have only imagined. Love was just a word to me until the universe placed you into my life, now love has become this undeniable untainted feeling! A feeling that has allowed me to open my heart and mind to things that only dreams were made of. A love that has touched my soul. A love that is you.....

The HIdden Place

Some people say that being left alone with your thoughts sometimes can drive a person absolutely crazy. That your solitude can become a prison of mixed emotion and confusion. I on the contrary disagree. I find nothing but beauty in my solitude. In times of great sorrow, in times of joy, even in times of confusion I find my solitude to be just what I need. The quiet and alone space to delegate my feelings and calculate my thoughts. In my solitude I find my most creative moments. I am able to write and draw my thoughts clearly with no judgement. I can color outside of the lines with no judgement. I can scream loudly, cry harder and come out as a winner and a more versed person inside and out! The beauty of my solitude is a sanctuary I have built for myself,within myself. A safe haven that I enter to make sense of the things around me. The emotions that over take me. The sights and sounds that astound me. The things I don't understand and need to find reason, cause or just embrace. My sanctuary. My solitude. My sanctuary,the womb of my inner most thoughts and feelings. I am inspired by all of my precious emotions. I take these times to become one with the universe and allow the power of kindness, the power of now, and the secrets of inner peace to become a permanent fixture in my life and my work! I have chosen to cast my energy,light and being into absolution of positive energy and motion for myself and the ones around me. I have choosen to open my heart to what the universe has and will put in front of me,to test my strength,patience,loyalty,humility, generosity,faith and love. I write this in hopes that the many that take time to read this will become encouraged to open their hearts as well. The world is in disarray and in a moment of distraction. However we should allow time to heal but our part to enlighten and encourage others to have a more dedicated faith in their being through drawing,photography, music, performance art and Solitude...

In The Silence....

I think of you in the silence,
I think of the time you laid me down ever so gently and caressed my hair
as you slowly and sensually kissed my neck.
I think of my nipples becoming erect,
with the touch your hands against my breasts.
I think of that gasp of air I took,
as your kisses went further down my body.
I think of your tongue erotically licking my belly,
as I moan with the desire of you licking further down the middle.
I think of you going further down, down between my legs,
as I spread them ever so slightly.
I think of you taking control and pushing them open,
as you blow so sweetly against me.
I think of your lips piercing mine with the most want I've ever felt,
as I arch my back and let you take in all I am.
I think of how wet I am against your mouth,
as you do things with your tongue that is beyond pleasurable.
I think of the dirty things I say I want you to do to me,
as you begin to place two fingers inside me.
I think of that delightful sound you made,
as you spread me wider and kissed me deeper.
I think of the light screams I made,
as you begged me to cum for you.
I think of the the ecstasy that over took my body,
as I wanted to cum for you.
I think of you licking me faster, filling me deeper,
as I took a breath of anticipation,
and did what I so desperately needed to do for you...
and damn did it feel like heaven!

My Darling, My Sweet,
How I long for us once again to meet.
How I long for you to run your fingers though my hair
and to smell your succulent cologne in the air.
Oh how I long to feel your face, your beautiful face
and to sense your gentle presence all over the place.
I want to caress your entire body so tenderly,
as I hold you so close, oh so adoringly.
And when we kiss, your passion I do taste.
How I long for the time that separates us to make haste.
For it seems as though by many a mile that we are apart,
but never fear, My Darling, My Sweet, it is for you that beats my heart.
And that alone is enough for now to sense you near,
Until the day your melodic voice I once again do hear.
It is you, your smile, your touch, your kiss that once upon a time set me free,
And now it is with you, My Darling, My Sweet, I want to be.

I close my eyes...

I close my eyes
and all I can see
is your beautiful smile.
I desire to run my hands
along your smooth face.

I close my eyes
and all I can see
are your beautiful green eyes.
I desire to look into them longingly
and become lost in adoration.

I close my eyes
and all I can feel
are your strong arms around me.
I desire for time to stop.

I close my eyes
and all I can feel,
are your lips pressed against mine.
I desire for this kiss to never end.

ENOUGH IS ENOUGH

When do we actually say to ourselves, enough is enough. When do we realize that the wool that is over your eyes was put there by us. We thought we did it to protect ourselves from the bad things in life or the hurtful things, but by putting that wool over our eyes, we have instead set ourselves up for the worst hurt of our lives. It is unfortunate that this happens to the masses of people who fear hurt, abandonment and rejection. We seek the comfort of others with the silent guarantee that it will not end in heartache, trauma, or tragedy. However these are the uncertainties of life. We take chances walking out of our front doors let alone opening our hearts and soul. As children we are raised in an environment of love, compassion, respect for others, selflessness, courtesy and karma. We are built to rely on a unit of family and friends. A functioning unit that allows us to grow up with a sense of pride in ourselves, and our development. A pride that gives us the strength to love others, to accept love in our lives, to accept others for who they are, to accept some situations as not the right or wrong situation for us. Nothing is perfect, no one is perfect. We are taught to accept our flaws and mistakes as to they can be corrected with attention. Becoming a conscious person is just a privilege that comes along with the knowledge and support of family unit. Now what would happen if you take that unit away, if that unit never existed. We will most likely have an individual(s) that cannot accept the beauty of life. Which is having pride in their upbringing, because they lack thereof any type of civil upbringing. When we come from a family of disfunction and unacceptance we become a product of it. Common sense will lead us to believe this. If we are not taught to love, accept fault with the knowledge of correction, respect for others and by all means karma, how can we expect to enjoy and feast on the beauties in life. How can we allow good things to happen around us, for us or through us. Without a stable developing accepting environment we are lost. Fear, commitment, abandonment, rejection, disappointment, not accepting fault with the knowledge of correction then become ideas to live by. Our souls are corrupted. The beautiful things in life that we should be enjoying are now being destroyed by disillusion and anger. We are not living to live but living to fear and to spread the fear. We then become the lemmings on the line to eternal damnation. It is discouraging to know that there are some many in the masses to live like this. We need not to fear but to embrace. Embrace our mistakes to correct them and grow. Embrace a loving hand as we would extend one. It really boils down to a level of respect we have for ourselves and others. But to answer the question of when do we say enough is enough; well that is the day we fall from the grace of disillusionment. The day the box we have enclosed ourselves in with pity and anger contain no more oxygen. There is no room to walk and no where to go. There are some that will see far before the hurt and fear has eaten them away. But there are others that will have to experience the depths of pain to understand that they have value and worth and can be compassionate, loving and giving people. They have the capacity to see and change the error in their ways. To enjoy the fruits of life with open arms. Embracing what is meant to be beautiful, not is what is meant to be sorrow or dismay. I for one, have been in a position where I needed to say enough is enough. I am saying it now, enough is enough, I want to embrace the good things in life and be able to love others fully and completely. To allow mistakes to happen by my hand but with the capacity to correct them with no objections. I REFUSE to wear the wool over my eyes. I want to love again. I want to be loved. I can accept love in my heart for myself and for others. I do not want to live with fear and will not. I AM A CONSCIOUS PERSON. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.


At exactly which point do you start to realize, that life without knowledge is death in disguise